What do you do when your brain is spinning and you can’t get anything done. You use your fingers to tap the thoughts out. Then hope for a productive day. So here we go with a Chelsey brain dump. Ha…
I watch triathlon videos and it makes me want to go hard. It makes me want to run sprints. Oh the horror. I want to train, but I just never really can get my butt out there. There is some sort of disconnect. I am hoping to close a chapter on my life Sunday. I hope that when I cross that finish line at the Aurora reservoir I will have fixed my brain. I feel like I have some un-finished business in the triathlon world. One thing is my DNF that I have had a hard time owning up to. I know why I got the DNF and it makes me sad. So far the race is shaping up to be a hot one. I want to have time goals for Sunday, but I am afraid. I have not had a good year of racing. No time goals have been met. Very little training has been done. Mental prep started on Tuesday. Ha
I have a strong desire to do Ironman Boulder next year, but there is so much fear. Last time around I got burned out, super sick for race day, and ended up with so many damn “allergies” and health issues after the race (I’ve had them for years, but they brought me to a breaking point after the race). I think a huge part of the issue stemmed from working a crappy job that had me working several Saturdays. Working Saturdays meant that I spent the first 6 hours of the day working on a road construction project and then the next 6 hours training in the heat of the day. My job caused me so much stress and anxiety. This stress and anxiety followed me into my training. I was super sad, upset, and just not a happy camper. I have made so many good changes in my life and I think I am in a place where I can really put my heart into a big race. I just got to keep my mind right during training.
End of brain day Friday. Such a random post. Hope someone enjoys this.